I am not going to lie and say that its been all sunshine and roses lately. Lets see I am currently being threatened out of my current dwelling, um I live with an impossibly horny ex who will not leave me alone. I can not find a job nor can I go live with my family because they went all psycho on me many years ago for falling for someone despite the gender.
Yeah ok I always have known that I was attracted to whatever makes the person but I was an abomination...apparently I was going to molest my baby sister because of my perversion... I mean what kinda sicko did they take me for. Alas now six years later I am out of my relationship, covered in tattoos and piercings and I have not made my family happy at all. OOO no the kicker was finding out I was bipolar and basically being put on a pill regiment. Ugh!!!
Okay so onward ho they say...smile be happy when all I really want to say is fuck off. How would you like to be groped and prodded by your drunken ex everyday and still know that this is a better situation than living with your mother. Is it too much to ask for true love or even a good form of love. Someone who will not treat you like a piece of meat...for fun happy times, for that person who will at least try to understand you and not slap you in the face with criticism or just not listen to you talk at all.
So now I have become obsessed with the m/m genre lol. I know that am jumping here but I cant help it. I have read some fascinating tales as of late but by far my fave authors are Mary Calmes, Sandrine gasq-dion, amy lane, sean michael's velvet series, Josh lanyon, anitra-lynn Mcleod, stormy glenn, joyce flynn, and gabrielle evans. I am not sure why I am interested in this genre perhaps because some others are so stale and the romances about sticking something in slot a and the girl sounds like some porn freak... I mean really some of the crap I have read has been well b-flickish. I think in my lifetime I have read about 10,000 books and that is not a stretch of the truth. In this past year I have read 1000 books already. Its scary lol. But I love to lose myself in a new world something unique that grabs my attention and drowns out my ex's ramblings... In between having migraines over not having a job and well a very drab sex life which unfortunately was over even when I was in my relationship...a girl needs her thrills and spills.
Well I have probably killed peoples brain cells by now but alas I will return soon...just smile and hope I don't smack the crap out of my current living partner. (Ok I wouldnt do that but I am sorely tempted).
Toodles
Tara
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